Random

Do you ever miss someone that you never had?
someone who you never really really knew?
a someone who you spent no more than 15 hours with...
10 of those 15 intoxicated?

i just realized that i spent literally 15 hours with a stranger....
and in 5 of the 15 hours we were sober,
had a moment.

and then it was over.
even though we have one another's information
it just wont ever be the same.
because there was something in the air that day..i don't know but
we shared something, just the safe feeling that i don't think i could feel with another stranger or person again. it wasn't love..it wasn't lust, i think that it was just comfort.

that we were both feeling alone and that mutual understanding of us feeling secure...
even if it was just for that moment...i think it was something I'll never forget.
he probably doesn't ever think about me or that day..
he's probably over it

but to me..it meant something and i don't think ill ever forget it.
i can forget him, but not the feelings i felt.
he gave me hope, for i dont know what but..

he gave me hope.

and i miss it.
not him but the way i felt.
the feeling that i could do whatever i wanted because im still so young.
and that i could be whoever i wanted because these people don't really know who i am

and while all this was happening i felt like i was another person.
i wasn't myself.
i was watching all this happen like i was someone else.

and i just miss it.