Married Life

So lately I’ve been thinking about marriage.
I’m thinking about taking up a marriage counseling class.
I was watching the last kiss last night and I couldn’t stop thinking about how true and real some of the situations were. I totally understand where Zach braff is coming from.
I know what he means by when he says getting married sounds so “final”
And it is…

In today’s society I don’t think people take marriage as seriously and others did back then.
I’m not sure what the divorce rate is now but I’m sure the younger the couple, the higher the rate.


I’m 20 and im married.

Some people would call me crazy but hey, I did it for love…I followed my heart…
But no matter how many times I say it to myself over and over again
I can’ help but feel like I did it for other reasons.

For Anthony
For my parents
For my daughter
For comfort
For security.
For love. ..

On the outside im an adult.
On the inside, im still just a kid.

A part of me feels like I got married because it was the right thing to do,
I wanted to wait.
Wait till Anthony and I both finished college
Till be were both grown adults.
Both mature enough to handle the responsibilities that come with the marriage.
But instead I feel like I just jumped into it because Anthony was already there.

He was so sure
So sure it would work out between us
So sure we’d be happy together. Forever…
But I forgot about that 1 thing..

That 1 thing that usually drives people away from one another in time.
Change .

People change
Things change
Times change

What we once thought was right could now be wrong.
The happiness we thought would be there could disappear.
And then the person you thought you once new slowly begins to fade.
Then suddenly, you don’t know this person anymore.
And believe it or not you’ve changed.
And you don’t even know who you are.

And when you don’t know who you are anymore
You’ve lost yourself.